It’s an abnormally hot summer day, even for mid- July. The bridal boutique where I’m trying on my dress now that the final alterations have been made is sweltering.

Luke looks incredibly uncomfortable sitting in the chair against the wall a few feet away from me, and while Grace paces back and forth near the door, talking to the hospital so she can follow up on one of her patients, she actually has to reach up and wipe the sweat away from her brow with the back of her hand. How are we doing, Miss Steele?” the manager asks, coming in from the back room for what feels like the 4. We’re fine,” I tell her. Still waiting.” She nods and gives me a very forced looking smile. I’ve been here, in this dress, for probably 4.

I’m sure she would have normally insisted we move along with our appointment so she could get me out of here as quickly as possible, she holds her tongue because I will be leaving this shop today with over six figures worth of wedding dresses. Not one, two. I twist in the mirror to admire the back of the dress again when, finally, Kate comes bustling through the archway leading in from the main store. I’m so sorry, Ana, traffic was terrible and there’s paparazzi outsi–” she halts in mid- sentence and the apologetic look on her face suddenly changes to confusion. But… that’s the same dress.”“I know,” I sigh. No one else has seen the new one yet, and I didn’t want to do the big reveal until you got here. I just wanted to look at the first dress one last time.” “It’s beautiful,” Kate says.

And you look amazing in it. I don’t understand why you’re changing it.” “It doesn’t fit the venue, and the other one is the one the paper announced I would be wearing, so…” My hands brush down over the soft ivory lace that perfectly hugs the body I’ve worked so hard to get back all the way down past my hips and then sweeps out in a graceful pool around my feet. The first time I tried this dress on, I immediately fell in love with the detail in the lace and the raw, unfinished edges of the thin lace straps that circle my shoulders. It’s beautiful, elegant, and yet still a little sexy. My breasts look fantastic cupped inside the custom created bodice and the dress itself is completely backless, all the way down to the top of my behind, which is artfully contained within the dress to look high, firm, and utterly perfect. I’ve imagined myself in this gown, walking down the aisle towards Christian, a hundred times, and even in just the fantasy of it, I could see the cocktail of wonder, love, and a hint of lust in his eyes.

It’s my perfect dress, but it’s not the dress I’ll be wearing on my wedding day. I sigh and turn away from the mirror.

Since the dress I”m wearing is custom made, I can’t return it, and while I step off the pedestal so I can make my way to the back to try on the new dress, I have a passing thought that maybe one day Calliope will wear this on her wedding day and it won’t feel like such a waste. It takes three people to help me get into the gown I’m actually going to wear on Saturday. We begin with not one, but two layers of petticoats to ensure the skirt of the gown will reach it’s full potential and then I’m strapped tightly into a kind of corset that will both keep my waist looking tiny and perfect, and act as a support for my breasts since this gown is strapless but the the bodice isn’t boned. After ensuring I can breathe, two salesgirls lift the dress as high as they can, while the manager holds open the skirt so I can slide inside, and as they carefully ease the dress over me, I prepare myself for the weight.

The gown is gorgeous. I kept the lace theme, as I really did love that from the first dress, but this lace isn’t ivory, it’s white, almost blinding white, which seems a bit presumptuous since my daughter is being carried down the aisle by my soon to be Mother- in- Law right in front of me. The bodice is intricate with a deep v sweetheart neckline, and straps similar to the first dress that drape beautifully, but uselessly, over my arms at the side. At my waist, the skirt begins to billow out in a cloud of gossamer and lace, which is woven into a floral pattern throughout the skirt to reflect the gardens where we’re saying our vows, and then continues on several feet behind me. As the sales staff lay the gargantuan train out behind me, which I’m sure will look amazing tumbling down the long staircases of Thornewood Castle, I’m once again floored by how stunning this gown really is.

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It’s the kind of dress you would imagine royalty would wear, but it’s also extremely heavy. Almost uncomfortably so. It feels almost as though it’s consuming me, and every time I imagine Christian trying to fight his way through all of this material to get under my dress on our wedding night, I burst into a fit of giggles. Alright,” the manager says brightly as she steps away from me.

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What do you think, dear?” “It really is beautiful,” I say, glancing up and down in my own private mirror.” “Your groom is going to be absolutely floored.” She smiles and attempts to further fluff the already overfull skirt. Oh, you look like Cinderella. Shall we show the others?” I nod and then take her hand to help me down off the pedestal, gathering the front of the skirt in my hand so I can walk, and as I wonder how that’s going to work practically when I walk down the aisle, one hand wrapped through my father’s elbow and another clutching to the huge white bouquet Seattle’s top tier florist has personally crafted for me, I feel the weight of the dress pulling me back. It’s like an anchor, determined to keep me in place, but I trudge forward, forcing myself out of the dressing room to where my family is waiting. Ana,” Luke says, straightening in his chair the moment I come through the arch and gawking at me.

Oh my god, you look…” He’s at a loss for words, and when Grace turns away from the display of hairpieces she’s carefully examining to look at me, her hand immediately shoots up to her mouth and her eyes well with tears. Oh, Ana… that’s it. That’s the dress.

My darling girl, you look absolutely beautiful.” “Really?” “Yes, oh, Christian is going to lose his mind when he sees you.” I let out a sharp exhale of relief and then step on the riser so I can examine the dress once more, but as the salesgirl places the veil over my hair and I turn to look at Kate, I notice that she’s not surveying the dress with quite the same enthusiasm as Luke or Grace.“Kate?” She glances up at me and gives me a subtly forced smile. It’s a beautiful dress, Ana. You look like a princess.” Her words aren’t insincere, but they aren’t overly joyous or excited either, so I frown. What’s wrong?” “Nothing.” She shakes her head, but I continue to stare her down until, eventually, she sighs. Watch Lee Evans: XL Tour Live 2005 4Shared.

It just doesn’t really look like you. Don’t get me wrong, it’s stunning, Ana.

You are going to look phenomenal on your wedding day and Christian…” She hesitates again, pursing her lips together as though she’s trying to keep herself from saying something she’ll regret.“And Christian?” I press her.“You look gorgeous, Ana.” “And Christian?” She sighs again. The other dress is so much more modern and…” she bites her lip, clearly struggling for words. When I first saw it, I imagined his jaw hitting the floor when he saw you appear at the end of the aisle. This dress is… pretty, but you are kind of lost in it.” I stare at her for a long time and then, out of nowhere, suddenly burst into tears. The weight of the dress seems to pull on me and, as I dissolve into the torrent of emotion that’s been building inside of me since the moment Christian told me he’d changed our wedding plans, I crumple to the floor. Watch Summer Camp Online Summer Camp Full Movie Online.

Oh my god, Ana,” Kate says, rushing to my side. I’m so sorry. It’s beautiful, it’s so beautiful, and you’re gorgeous. Christian is going to love it. Watch Freeway Download Full more. Everyone is.” “That’s true, Ana.

You are going to be the most beautiful bride anyone has ever seen,” Grace adds and she falls to her knees next to me and pulls me into her arms. She’s right, though,” I sob. This dress isn’t me.